The opposite of encouraged.

That is how I feel.

I’m still trusting in God’s plan for us. That hasn’t changed…but I am discouraged.

I told you everything I know. We got the letter telling us we were approved for classes and would be notified “soon” of our dates for our required classes.

I haven’t heard a word since then.

It’s not the end of the world, but it is so disheartening to have things move quickly and then just stop. I wasn’t prepared for a speedy process (though my heart wanted one) but with the way things started it just felt like we were on a roll.

I believe that God uses many aspects and situations to teach us lessons. I’m afraid this is my “you are not in control” lesson. {Why God, why? I’m SO good at being in control!!!} Lord knows [literally] that I struggle with control issues. I have a LARGE problem <is it ACTUALLY a problem?> with needing to be in control. When I am in control of, let’s say, my family finances, we have more money put aside than when my husband is in control of the finances. (This is NOT a newsflash… he knows this). Organizing <sans a label maker like my sister carries around> and keeping order is one of my strong suits. I have a “knack” for things like that. This is why I feel so strongly that God may be teaching me to give control to Him.

So that’s what I am going {trying} to do. God’s got this. He hasn’t forgotten about us or the child we will bring into our family. He just has lessons for us to learn along the way.

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“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33

Thank you for being a part of this journey,

Cara Roxanne

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